I may have underestimated the combined impact of my sales job and daygame roller-coaster on my mood. Today’s mood swings are outrageous. It doesn’t help that I’m on week one of nicotine withdrawal and day 2 of caffeine withdrawal. The whole world seem rather bleak.
I have thoughts of quitting my job, returning to data engineering (which I despise even more), the thought of writing code again makes me cringe. I’m thinking of the Italian gym rat I cut out of my life - even though I blogged that I was over her. Nietzsche was right that when we are tired, we are attacked by ideas we conquered long ago.
What’s the solution? I don’t know. I’ll sleep it off tonight and will probably feel better. Being less of an idiot and stop grabbing for a cigarette in the moment will likely help as well.