category: Inner Game

I severely underestimated the stress of this Eurojaunt. I’m essentially on a nearly two week holiday from my stressful corporate sales job. Besides daygame, I planned a host of activities to do during the mornings: gym, reading, catching up on personal email, writing, reflecting on my life and goals. None of that happened. The daily > 6 hour long daygame sessions took an unexpected toll on both my mind and my body. Mentally I’d say I’m doing fine. I’m not more stressed than I am on the clock. I learned how to deal with work stress by maintaining healthy routines. However, the daygame roller-coaster and several poor decisions plunged me into a downward spiral. ...

It dawned on me that I’ve been single for over three years now. Sure, I’ve had relationships every now and then, but I always saw or at least pursued multiple girls on the side. Now that I work my corporate job, where most people have relationships or even families, I’m faced with the question: why am I single? Even most of the wings I daygame with are all looking to settle down in the near future. Not me, though. Why? ...

Last week I left my IT-contracting business and stared a high-pressure corporate sales job. That’s right - I went back into Corporate after swearing I’d never to that. Three things spurred this change: I was absolutely done with IT1 I had natural aptitude for sales and networking It’s one of the best companies in the fastest growing industries that pays me handsomely A few changes I noticed w.r.t. daygame: My time is a lot more limited now. So far, I only managed to quit work at 6 PM (which isn’t too bad really) but in February it’s already dark and often cold and rainy at this time. Thus I only went out to do sets on Saturday. ...

How is this relevant to daygame? Because “safe,” meaningless, unrewarding work that only benefits the business owner fucks up my vibe. I’ve always worked in software and, more specifically, data. A fertile breeding ground for hopeless betas and scheming gammas. I always despised my colleagues working in IT: usually some scrawny Indian dude or an obese white dude that avoids eye contact as if it were a shower with soap. ...

I’ve always had an obsessive personality. Whether it was study, games or work, I always sacrificed all other parts of my life to excel at the object of my obsession at the time. Without a doubt, daygame is my current obsession: it’s by a far the activity I’ve spent the most time on this year, and have read the most about. Although the impact on my personal life was modest, the impact on my work has been substantial. ...